***This post may contain a few minor spoilers. I will try to limit the details for anyone who hasn't read the story yet but it will not give away anything major. I am not sure if I already told this story in past posts but it's amusing me so I will tell it again if so.
I just finished reading Double Sunset for probably the 100th time. I don't know why I felt like I wanted to read it again other than I have really been missing Ava and Jack's world. I cringed at a lot of the writing and had to force myself to not think about the things I wanted to go back and edit and change and just enjoy the story I created and love so much! Even though I know the story inside out and backwards I still loved getting to know my characters just a little bit more.
As I was reading I remembered a funny story from the editing process that I wanted to write about because it makes me laugh and I don't want to forget about it. I can't really remember exactly when it happened but at some point during the very end stages of editing, perhaps even right before I published, I thought I had added a scene in which Katherine goes to see John before he leaves.
I remember in great detail writing about Katherine sneaking out of the house very early in the morning to just get a look at John before he goes. She hides behind the outhouse waiting to catch a glimpse of him as he left the house. She gets a surprise when he comes out of the outhouse and goes down to his house. She sneaks to the window and overhears a conversation between John and his Ma where he tells her to watch over and take care of Katherine while he is gone. Katherine then sneaks back to her house and into the barn where her father catches her.
Now I clearly remember typing this all up and so vividly remember every detail of it. However, I cannot find it anywhere. I thought for sure I had added it into the story, or was going to. But it is no where to be found on any of my computers or files. The only thing I can think is that I dreamt it but even that is so odd to me as I don't remember it as a dream at all but it is entirely possible that I did dream it all up. I had often had dreams about Ava and Jack or Katherine and John while I was writing but none so vivid. I had myself completely convinced that I had written this up and a part of me still believes it is somewhere in a file. The waters of my memory are so muddy about it.
The scene was so beautiful and clear in my mind and I hope that one day I will either really write it out or find it hidden somewhere.
The mind is a funny place and perhaps this was just meant to be an extension of my characters that I have come to love. Either way it is a part of the story I cherish, even if it didn't make it into the book.
I am really struggling to write another book. I have an idea but can't seem to get writing. I am hoping that rereading Double Sunset will help to get my writing juices flowing! I have the utmost respect for writers that can churn out new stories year after year. I may never write another one, I really don't know at this point, but either way is ok with me because I will continue to write in some way and I will always have the love of my first story, my first characters. They will always be a part of me!
<3
Kristin
